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[06 Jul 2009|01:58pm] |
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Fallout 3 is great, not done with it yet though.
Finished On Writing, I started VALIS by Philip K. Dick but that was generally awful. I got fifty pages (1/4) into it and called it quits. Reading King's The Dead Zone right now, about 130 pages in.
I hate the distinction of making something "From Scratch." WTF is that supposed to mean? I bought brownie mix then baked them myself, but, that didn't count because I used mix. What else did you want me to do? It's not like I bought the break-off brownie squares, I still could have screwed that one up.
The next time someone makes something and claim they made it from scratch, I'm going to ask if they milked the cow (or for that matter, raised the cow, nurtured and fed it, etc), got the chicken's eggs, and so forth.
F'rs.
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| The Lie |
[18 Jun 2009|11:04pm] |
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Things are going well, especially with Elizabeth. I mean we've known each other for about 3.5 years, and we've always clicked, but it's nice to see exactly how perfectly we mesh with each other.
Works is great. Not taking classes right now, though I'm meeting with my academic advisor to discuss classes and graduation plans.
I got a PS3 for Blu-Ray purposes. I am playing NCAA09 right now, though NCAA10 comes out in 4 weeks. I'm probably gonna go ahead and pick up Fallout 3 this weekend. Exciting stuff.
I finished several books, as well, including:
* The Stand by Stephen King. Absolutely fantastic.
* Urban's Way by Buddy Martin. Pretty good if you like the Gators and/or Urban Meyer.
* The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russel. Elizabeth's recommendation. It was pretty good, not amazing but I really enjoyed it.
* Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut. It was all right, went through it pretty quickly.
Going to start either On Writing by Stephen King, or Rant or Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk next, I believe.
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| Because You Left |
[09 Apr 2009|10:54pm] |
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I am a horrible student. Generally I think I'm just above-average when it comes to intelligence. There are a lot of things I'm not very good at. A lot of things I'm okay at, and very few things I'm good at.
I have no motivation. I am pigeon-holed into a major I hate, classes I hate, and a job I enjoy. I devote way more time to work than I do school, and I feel awful for it. I am an awful student but a good, hard-working employee (I won Employee of the Month for last month). All I want to do is graduate and move on. God knows what I would do for graduate school - I don't think I have the grades to go anywhere.
I want to get into coaching, that's really the only thing I care about doing. I have hobbies - none of which I would make careers out of - and my major is BS and wouldn't get me a job even in a good economy.
I have a girlfriend who supports me and worries that I will stick around Gainesville too long after she graduates. I don't know where she's going in the fall, and it scares us both. I would like to be done by December and maybe we could go off somewhere.
Maybe I'm too hard on myself, but I always feel down around this time of year. I feel like I'm going to disappoint everyone I know, and perhaps myself, but I don't know. I suppose you could call it "failed potential."
I wish I had done things differently, when I had a chance. Three years ago, I nearly switched into the college of Health and Human performance. I wanted Sports Management (where I had friends) or Coaching (which was available at the time and was axed a year or two ago). I stayed within the College of Liberal Arts and Sciences, instead, because I already had credits for it and I didn't want to fall behind.
Now I'm miserable and depressed all the time. So many people know what they want to do, or have their lives in order, and I'm as lost as I've ever been. I figured out what I wanted to do far too late, and god knows what I'm going to be doing a year from now...or even six months from now.
I have made some mistakes and I hate myself for them. I don't even want to go home anymore because I think my parents will hate me for it too. They've always demanded more out of me than I demanded out of myself. They'll call these last four years of my life a waste of time and money.
I am a waste of their time and money.
What I need is someone who can be like "It's okay - I have a plan, do this, this, and this and you'll be right on track." My advisors are useless - most chastise me for only taking 12 credits per semester. I want to talk to one who will tell me to relax, that this school has a program I'm interested in, and if I take these classes I could go there and do what I want. Instead they try and shuffle me in and out.
I see some of my friends who have their lives in order, and I have no idea how they do it. I'm jealous of most of you. A few of you live the life I wish I could lead. I can point to a handful of you and go "That's what I wish I could do."
But I'm too terrible to do it.
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| Something Nice Back Home |
[18 Mar 2009|12:45am] |
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For Spring Break, Elizabeth and I drove from Gainesville, FL, to Raleigh, NC (Sunday); NC to Maryland (Monday); spent a day in DC (Tuesday); drove from Maryland to Greene, NY (Wednesday); NY to Canada to see Niagara Falls (Thursday) and back; NY to Maryland (Friday); Maryland back to Raleigh (Saturday); and finally, NC back to Florida (Sunday). Overall, an awesome trip. Here are some pics (all of them are on my Facebook - I'll update this a few times this week for each set):
( Washington DC )
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| Cabin Fever |
[15 Jan 2009|04:06pm] |
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Elliott Smith - "Tomorrow Tomorrow" |
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So it's been a while since I posted.
The Gators won (another) national title. I went (again) and it was awesome. Pics are on the FB.
Classes are OK this semester, I guess.
It's way too cold out. I live in Florida for a reason.
Some other things are looking up, jury's out I suppose!
LOST starts up again in 6 days.
Anyway, hope all is well.
PS: 3-0 at national titles, baby.
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| Myxamatosis |
[03 Dec 2008|01:09am] |
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Fuck you Pepsi, I don't want to buy 8 or 18 packs. I want a 12 pack of soda. Now I have to buy two 8-packs of Dr. Pepper and they fit awkwardly in my fridge. 18 is entirely too much, does NOT fit in the fridge, and the box breaks when you try and carry it because there's too much soda in it.
Fuck you, Pepsi, you all are a bunch of assholes.
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| The Stand |
[17 Nov 2008|10:55pm] |
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The Smiths - "I Know it's Over" |
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We broke up today.
Also I sprained my MCL but I guess that'll be fine in two weeks.
There's a good entry in my quotes page, check it out.
Oh and I didn't get SEC Championship student tickets, so today has just been awesome.
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| Obstacle 2 |
[14 Nov 2008|03:43pm] |
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Dayna and I had one of those relationship talks where you determine whether you're going to continue or not. Basically as soon as we said the L-word to each other, she kind of freaked out because she's afraid of commitment. She's never had a relationship last longer than about two months because as soon as it gets serious, she bolts.
So we had a long talk last night, and we're going to try and work this out together. There's nothing actually WRONG with our relationship. She's just mostly afraid of being seriously involved, and I know that because she and I are cut from the same mold. But we can try and help each other through this.
However, in the back of my mind I still think this thing has probably run its course and there'll be no going back to the way it was. Which is a shame because the past 2+ months have been some of the best of my life, and something as silly as a four-letter word may have ruined everything.
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| Obstacle 1 |
[09 Nov 2008|06:47pm] |
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I hate it when you get a bad feeling about something and it won't go away, even though you have no basis for it.
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| There There |
[08 Oct 2008|04:40pm] |
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My life has never been better than right now.
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| White Horses |
[03 Aug 2008|06:01pm] |
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This has pretty much been the best weekend I have had in a LONG time, maybe ever?
Friday, I got paid from work then went down to Tampa for the Rays game...fun experience, we won 5-2. I got Outback at the stadium, then Dippin' Dots in the 7th inning. Afterwards, we went out to Sonic and the manager offered to buy my wallet from me for an unnamed price. I strongly considered it, but kind of wanted a wallet with me the next few days.
Saturday was Julie's birthday. I got a haircut, ran some errands (picking up new clothes and stuff), had lunch at Grillsmith, and then went to Macaroni Grill for dinner. Had some great pics taken (check the new Facebook picture!) and whatnot. Afterwards we went to a karaoke lounge, where they had individual rooms. That kicked ass. The whole night was just a lot of fun, and I met some great new people. Plus I got to see Julie for the last time till she moves.
Today I just went to lunch with the parents and then drove back up to Gainesville.
I got this awesome painting of Tebow from my parents. It's now hanging in my room above the switch for the lights and fan, near the door. It's sweet.
That's all I have to say about that.
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| Take Me Somewhere Nice |
[15 Jul 2008|07:49am] |
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I wish things could have been different.
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| Smash Bros. ruminations |
[25 Jun 2008|07:03pm] |
I was thinking about how many more installments of Super Smash Bros. they could have, and that the only way to KEEP coming out with them is to have new characters. But who else could they add? Well...
* Re-add Roy and Mewtwo. Shouldn't have been taken out of this one, anyway.
* Dixie Kong. How f'n awesome would it be to float around and pick shit up with your hair?
* King K. Rool. They have King Dedede, it's not a stretch to have this bad guy, too.
* Knuckles & Tails. Both solid additions.
It might be a stretch, but...
* King Boo or Petey Piranha. They're in Mario Kart, and Petey even makes an appearance in Brawl. They could work in Smash Bros, but you never know.
* Shadow. While he'd likely be a Sonic copy, he's apparently the second most popular character in Sonic. Plus he's pretty sweet.
* Mega Man. I don't care if he's in or not, but popular demand says yes. I think it'd be a nice mix if he is.
* Bowser Jr. Just for the hell of it.
Just please, don't put in...
* Any peripheral characters like the babies (Baby Mario), Daisy, or Amy or those other Sonic animals.
* Dr. Robotnik/Eggman.
* More Pokemon. We have like 8, that's enough.
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| The Shape of Things to Come |
[03 Jun 2008|01:29am] |
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So many things to talk about.
Just got done coaching kids in football. It was all-around awesome. I won't be doing it in the fall, but I'll probably do it in the spring. I had a blast. (you can see photos of the kids and of games here)
I got a call Saturday that told me my grandmother (on my mom's side) died. Really, it's for the best, considering she's been in declining health for years. I was a little surprised to get it this past weekend; a year ago, I would have expected it, 6 months ago I would have expected it, it just came from nowhere though. The funeral is Thursday.
One of my roommates is driving me crazy. First off, he got a goddamn dog. Now, his girlfriend's apartment complex doesn't allow dogs. Our complex doesn't allow dogs. He already has his girlfriend's cockatiels in his room, but apparently they decided it's a good idea to buy a fucking dog. I just have no idea at what point they decided it was a GOOD idea to buy a dog. The dog sits in his room and whines all day, and smells.
So, aside from that, he's also taking my glasses and silverware and other kitchen things. It was no big deal with I saw an occasional used cup in the sink, I can wash that out. But EVERY day I go to the kitchen and I have no glasses or anything to eat with. So I have to constantly wash everything. I'm also finding his food on my food shelves in the refrigerator (there are three shelves, three roommates, pretty clear right?), which really isn't that big of a deal...except every day I have to f'n rearrange everything.
I am probably making a bigger deal about everything than it is (except the dog - that has to stop), but everything compounding kind of drives me crazy.
Anyhoo, how are you all?
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| Crystal Skull |
[21 May 2008|12:10pm] |
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So I've had this small cold for the last 2 weeks. It doesn't really bother me persistently, but it just won't go away. I've been using Tylenol Cold, and it helps a bunch; I feel normal while using it. But once I wake up the next morning, it's back.
F'n hell.
A bit of good news: Indiana Jones comes out tomorrow! Woo hoo!
LOST season finale in a week, and Kate may be visiting Gainesville.
Plus I've been coaching kids in football.
Life is good (aside from the never-ending cold).
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| Quicksand |
[23 Apr 2008|02:09am] |
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Radiohead - "Go Slowly" |
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I don't know what it is, but women always have problems having roommates. I know very, very few guys with roommate troubles. And most of the time, it's just stuff like "He's a slob" or "he's a douche," but women are freakin' psychos when it comes to bad roommates. I've heard stories about throwing things, how people are literally crazy, how they'll plot against their roommates, they'll go weeks without speaking to each other, etc. Even if they're friends, they have roommate problems.
I've never had serious issues with my roommates. I think most guys brush it off and don't care. I don't know why, but pretty much every chick I know has a problem with her roommates, save a small handful. It's an inverse for the guys.
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